Texasgirl1995

44 • Female • Amarillo

What you don't see when you look at me is that I'm the epitome of a beautiful disaster. On the outside, it looks like I have it all beautifully put together. I have a beautiful home, amazing parents, wonderful children, awesome friends, a great relationship with my ex, a good job, and I just finished school. On the inside, I am a disaster. I am beauty and chaos, joy and pain, love and sorrow, triumph and heartache, doubt and fear all rolled into one. I am strong willed and hard headed and I am almost impossible to love. I am not easy. I will raise you up and let you down all the while I'm trying to breathe. I don't like to get too close and I will never truly let you in. I adapt to my surroundings and my mood adjusts with it. I am never settled. I sway like the wind. And I keep pushing. Pushing for a better day, a greater purpose, and an intimacy that I can get lost in.